The Beginning

Personally, I think blogging is a bit egotistical. What makes someone so profoundly special that they require a diary online, as that is the main purpose of blogging for common folk? In my mind, the internet is a vast place, likely a result of all the average joe bloggers. I will do my very best not to waste space, or the time of those who may happen to stumble upon this.

My main purpose in life is to create. For someone who is just 18, I've heard it's a bit soon to decide what your life's purpose is, but mine has been pretty obvious. It doesn't matter what I'm doing, as it always can be put into the category of creating. I create art, messes, noise, controversy. Create is a very generous verb in that sense. Unfortunately, all I've been creating lately is a butt print in the couch.

I just moved back home with my younger sister, and find myself a bit unmotivated. Most of my belongings are in CA with my parents, and won't arrive for another month. I do not possess a license, or job, at the moment. My days have revolved around my puppy, Nero, and the Real Housewives of New Jersey. Things need to change. The job hunt is on. Driving lessons are scheduled. But there's more to life, and my needs, than just that.

This blog is the beginning (don't you love it when they use the title in the script?!). I need to get my rump in gear. I made a day zero account not too long ago in hopes that I would be motivated to finish that baby off in a year rather than three. Unfortunately, I plateaued. I lost interest, as I often do. My mind is normally planning and scheming, so once I begin one thing, I think of something else I should also begin. Like road construction, the more things you begin, the less things you get done. Now, I turn to this blog to assist me in achieving not only my day zero goals, but life goals, and feeling that if I sit around in my pajamas all day, the internet will send me many "tsk tsk"s when I am forced to admit it in my blog.

I don't plan to be someone who uses their blog as a diary. I will not be posting "Matilda is such a bitch" and "Can you believe Anne is pregnant?" and "I have such a crush on Rosie O'Donnell". Not only are all those things untrue, but they are also not worth reading. This blog will be used to complete the following tasks:

• Task 54 on my day zero list: Start a photography journal. I have always wanted to have a photography journal, and now this blog will function as one. The photography journal will involve a photo for everyday, to be uploaded either everyday or all together once a week. Each day, I will have a photo category to complete. Such will be determined in the official start of my photography journal.
• Force me to keep on top of my life. How embarrassing would it be to have to tell the internet, i.e. the world, that you are not contributing? That you are wasting away the little time you have to make a difference? To make happiness? I would be deeply ashamed. Therefore, I cannot let myself be the sloth I've been lately.
• Allow me a place to document ideas and plans for projects to do later. Later is the key word in that sentence. I will be putting ideas for projects in a color other than the typical font color for easy viewage. I want to have some organization in my life, especially with my projects. If this can keep me from having 20 projects at once, I will feel some success. And internet? I hate people who are unoriginal. It's nice that you might like my idea, but if you're going to use it, use it as a starting block. Grow a little.
• Control my socialization needs. I'm a talker. Big time. This is one of the reasons I want to be a radio dj, but not the annoying dumb kind. I find I bother my close friends with my need to interact with others. Although this is a bit one sided, perhaps it will give the lovely people who put up with me a break from my chatter. You're welcome in advance. Pay me back in food.

That may be a bit adventurous for day one. I honestly can't say. It's nearing midnight here, and I may be getting overly ambitious in the late hours, as I normally do. For some reason, bed time is synonymous with brain storming to me. Sleep gets put on the back burner, which is probably not the best plan.

Now that I have forced myself to get things rolling, I will enjoy another chapter of "The Graveyard Book" as read by Mister Neil Gaiman, so puppy and I can drift off to sleep. The sooner we sleep, the sooner we can wake up and start our new meditation routine. I think my puppy enjoys it more than me, which is a bit odd...

Your Achiever-in-the-Making

Martha May